Having lived for 36 years in the UK, 8 in South Africa and
now in Portland on a 7 year visa, the question of where is ‘home’ came up
recently, in a not too friendly discussion of whether I could count Cape Town
as my home. I am a British (now Euro I guess) National with permanent South
African residency and a 7 year US visa!
When I first moved to SA, I felt compelled to return to the
UK every Christmas to savour the festive spirit and relieve homesickness. A lot of my family are still an 11 plane ride
away, albeit through time zones unlike the SA flight. The majority of my
friends are in SA, especially those who have been understanding and supportive
over the last year or so. But so are a lot of people I have hurt. Badly.
I loved Portland from day 1. It’s my kind of city. Not too
big. Safe, walkable, amazing trails to run on and safe roads to ride on. It’s
Cape Town without the sea, but also without the security and safety issues. But
a city is only bricks and mortar until you make friends, find a structure and
start living a normal life there.
Maybe my personality is too restless and rootless to need a
place to call home? Should that make me feel sad and unfulfilled? I guess
that’s where I come back to the title of this blog; There’s more to life,
apparently? It was another question put to me in the run up to African X when
my mileage was high and I was running twice a day most days, with the rest of
the time work and sleep. It is after all only a hobby, isn’t it. But is one
that gets you to places and to meet people who seem to have a more rounded
philosophy on life than the sedentary part of the population. Running on a
treadmill or pounding the street maybe, but being on the trails, often with
just the sound of your feet and breathing does make you appreciate the
simplicity of life. There’s that great
African running saying, that in the morning the lion must run to catch the
gazelle to eat to live, and the gazelle must run to avoid being eaten. So when
you wake up in Africa you better be sure you are running! Are runners always
running towards something or away from something?
Many of the top US trail runners here seem to be struggling
with the new paraphilia that goes with the trail running explosion. They want
to keep working in the local Whole Foods store, want to spend time building a
house, or race the races they want to do, not those of their sponsors or those
expected of them as the elite. Nobody’s
forcing them to conform of course, but it seems an irresistible pull for many.
Away from the simple life the American mountain men had, to sponsor’s
invitations, product endorsements, branded kit (its safe to say that sponsoring
an American trail runner where running without tops, hydration packs and any
obvious branding is common place doesn’t seem that great an investment) and
performance bonuses.
Which comes back to there’s more to life. Maybe, but being
able to run in the forest, live a sustainable, low environmentally damaging
lifestyle, and keep it simple is a pretty good philosophy for life. Having
always worked for companies where I have a passion for the business and their
products, and having a highly fulfilling pastime, I don’t feel I’m that far
from Nirvana (pun intended).
Where is Home is a good question! I would love to think I'm only truely home when running alone on the mountain as the Cape Winter rolls in, but maybe that is when I'm most alive...
ReplyDeleteMaybe home is sitting in by the fire drinking fine wine with Friends (Dawn is the number one friend).
But in reality it's where your clothes are unpacked, where you can sleep late and the door is always open!!!
I loved this. Every single part of it! I have found that I can have many different homes, even if I physically occupy one specific place. My mothers house - home, my little one room - home, our trails - home, when I am surrounded by people who love me - home. You are home here in Portland! And you are home in Cape Town! Welcome home.
ReplyDeleteThanks Coach. I think by the fire with a glass of red is your home.
ReplyDeleteDanielle, Portland feels like home, especially when the suns out and the trails are green :)
Me thinks your home remains aloof - it does not want to be known yet? Perhaps in a moment of stillness, and you feel a peace within you, that place will then be home? Tis not yet.
ReplyDeleteHi Ian. This is Sally from the distant past. Would love to hear from you. My email is Sallyleeson152@btinternet.com. X
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